Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Monday, October 26, 2009
Friday, October 23, 2009
- I love God (thought I would start with something ya'll didn't know.)
- I don't show it often enough
- I really do hate talking about myself - what better reason to start a blog right?
- I do love to talk (explains number 3)
- I married my highschool sweetheart- at age 17. yikes! (no, I wasn't pregnant, just in love)
- I love him more today than I did back then
- I can't sing to save my life... well, I can, and I do, but it ain't pretty
- I love to stay at home
- I also love to go out with my family
- and have lunch/coffee with friends.
- My life is a sea of constant contradictions
- I fear that by the time I am 70, I'll be that crazy cat lady who won't leave the house... only without the cats because well, cats are just dumb
- I strongly dislike cats... very strongly.
- I have 2 awesome kids
- I am a pack-rat, mostly because I don't know when to throw the papers away.
- really? this is only 16???
- my boy was 3lbs 6oz when he was born, now at age 8 he's over 90lbs. God is Good
- My daughter's prayers make me cry
- I am a big cry baby
- I am painfully shy
- I passed 19 and 20 onto my son, sorry kid
- I love games! Preferably board games or card games
- Perky people frighten me
- I believe sarcasm should be a font
- Instead of a circle of friends, I have satellites of friends. My closest friends don't know each other more than in passing
- I've never met one of my dearest confidants in real life... we met through me talking about me and her talking about her
- I hate laundry
- I love to cook
- I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up
- I own wooden shoes
- I go to movies strictly for the popcorn
- I believe that Kim is the cause of Kim's problems... not Sheree. (that's right, B)
- I had a hysterectomy at age 28
- I still want more kids
- I am addicted to playing Brickbreaker on my phone anytime I have a spare minute
- I want to be a contestant on Amazing Race... who's coming with?!
- I really am not exciting enough for 50 things
- I am a hair stylist... at least 2 days a week anyway
- I love thunderstorms
- But I am deathly afraid of tornadoes (I built my house so that I would have a place to go sleep with my kids if ever there is going to be tornadoes.)
- Blizzards are the coolest thing ever (and I don't mean DQ)
- I love to go fly places
- I hate to get on a plane and actually fly
- I told you I was contradictory
- I would love to have a dog
- I prefer to use humor when I don't want you to see what's really going on
- My 6 year old daughter can crack eggs better than I can
- I am a sinner
- I am saved
- I am finished!!!
If you hung in there, I again, apologize, and thank you for that! Now, go find some caffeine to perk up your life, you're looking a bit sleepy, my friend!
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Can't help but laugh now, because I wrote this last night, and the slipped on over to (in)courage this morning only to read this post by Angie Smith. Hmm.... me thinks we are trying to be taught something by a certain, magnificent God.!
- Ya know, I like to pride myself on being pretty quick to catch on. Today was no exception. I was lead to the same quote not once, but twice. in one day. It comes from Stasi Eldredge's book "Captivating". And while I haven't read her book, I heard the quote 2 times. The first while checking in on this blog and the second while listening to Beth Moore's Esther study. Coincidence? I think not.
- Oh, did you want to hear the quote?! It is talking about how women feel as if they are "being too much and not enough" AMEN!
- This is a season of franticness. Our kids our involved in so much, and we feel they need to be to be well rounded, because that's what everyone is telling us. We need to volunteer to help with these activities, because that's what good moms do. We know, they told us! We need to volunteer at church, we need to keep the house clean, family well fed ( I know I for one have always had a perfectly kept house with fresh hot healthy and nutritious meals ready for my family, but I understand not all of you do. HA!) And then, lets not forget the the "Holidays" are coming. Why is it that we now come to see that as a negative? I love Thanksgiving, the crisp autumn air, the beautiful church service, the big family dinner, the fall decor that I may go overboard on. So why does the thought make my heart race?! And Christmas... in case you didn't know that, its coming. I know this because my local stores have decided to put out the decorations in September, lest I forget what will be arriving in just a few (3!) months. Isn't that supposed to be a good thing? Not shouted like a warning siren? A time to reflect on the miracle birth? The birth of a SAVIOR for crying out loud! Why do we say it like, "the holidays, ugh" ?
- As women, we do feel that we can't slow down, it just adds to that statement, its too much, but still, not enough. Help me off of this ride, Lord. I just want to be held by you. I want to enjoy the blissful peacefulness in time spent with you. Speak to me through your word.
Sunday, October 18, 2009
- The church doesn't pay for anything out of its budget.
- You are able to choose how many kids you want to help
- Each child receives 2 gifts: one clothing, one toy
- Each gift has a max $20 limit
- The person taking care of this child/ren receive a gift of groceries- 1 per family
- Members of the congregation purchase the gifts and return to church
- you can either deliver gifts to their door, or host an Angel Tree Party at your church to distribute the gifts and spread the gospel story.
Please remember that these children have done nothing to deserve a parent in prison. Also keep in mind that none of us are more than 1 bad choice from being in the exact position that these parents are in. If you have any questions at all, feel free to leave a comment in the comment section, or to email me from at firstname.lastname@example.org
Did I mention that they need them registered by October 23?! Click here to register or to learn more about Angel Tree.
Even if you can't register this year, consider for next year, and join me in praying for this amazing ministry. ( I will try to find my "thank you letters" from both care-givers, and prisoners and share those with you this week)
Friday, October 16, 2009
One phone call can hold so much power and emotion and tilt your world on its axis.
- Well, it was unexpected to say the least. We received a call yesterday looking for a place for 3 kids. She told me all the facts she could, I politely said I will be talking to my husband, and she said "I called him first." Me, "really? What did he say?" Her "He didn't know what to say, that's why we usually call the women first, I didn't mean to call him" Haha! I'll bet not! You have to know that Steve isn't a talker in the first place and then for him to get that call, I would have loved to have seen that as he sat at lunch unexpectedly with his co-workers. Anyway, the case was too much for us at this time. 3 kids 5 and under, many issues. Obviously not right for us as Steve's schedule is not yet where it needs to be for me to feel comfortable taking that on.
- Here's where I struggle. Going into this program, I knew saying "no" would be my biggest challenge and that has proven to be true. Even this time, when it is so obvious, and I feel that God would have personally struck me down with lightening had I chosen to wimp out and say "yes, of course, I just want to help." That's great that I want to help and all, but knowing my limits is helping. And that is a tough lesson. I want nothing more than to open my door and say "Come on in! I will give you love and hope and all you ever could need" and yet, I can't. It will never ever get easy to say those words. I can't. I want to. I can't. It breaks my heart. But I am heeding his calling at this time. All I can say is I can't. But HE can.
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
- From Jesus Calling by Sarah Young:
- Beware of seeing yourself through other people's eyes. There are several dangers to this practice. First of all, it is nearly impossible to discern what others actually think of you. Moreover, their views of you are variable: subject to each viewer's spiritual, emotional, and physical condition. The major problem with letting others define you is that it borders on idolatry.(never thought of it like that) Your concern to please others dampens your desire to please, Me, your Creator.(so, it isn't really about ME?!) It is much more real to see yourself through My eyes. My gaze upon you is steady and sure, untainted by sin. Through My eyes you can see yourself as one who is deeply, eternally, loved. Rest in My loving gaze, and you will receive deep Peace. Respond to My loving Presence by worshipping Me in spirit and in truth.
Monday, October 12, 2009
Thursday, October 8, 2009
- Congratulations to LL Barkat for winning Crazy Love by Francis Chan!! If you email me at email@example.com with you snail mail address, I will ship it directly from Amazon right away! Enjoy!
- Thanks to EVERYONE for your awesome rainy day entries, they were fabulous! Tara, good to know what I have to do to get a comment out of you! ;) But that's okay, you may continue to blog stalk me, I appreciate it and love ya too! Bina, sorry no skittles bribing allowed! Steph, I would love to have skylights while its raining! Kim, as we reached day 5 of no sunshine and all rain, I couldn't help but saying, there is no sunshine, but the Son is still shining! LL, Wow, it was poetry that you used to describe sitting under the tree during the rain, thank you.
- Have a Blessed Thursday everyone!
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
- I had a plan in my head for what I was going to write, mainly because it has come up a lot in different circumstances. I believe that when we told people that we were terminating our foster care of the two girls this summer, that people just assumed we were done with the whole idea of foster-adoption. Sadly, it has started to come across as a bit of "whew, they got that out of their system, moving on now" Not from everyone who it has been brought up with, I assure you. But enough that I just feel the need to state clearly, that our intention is to do whatever God leads us to do. Our strong desire that had been so clearly orchestrated by Him to begin with doesn't just end overnight. Our case was not the case for us. He has made that clear, despite the feelings of guilt that I still live with, despite the questions raised, and yes, even despite the feelings of certain family members that we made the wrong decision by letting them go. It was right to let them go. We had no other choice for our family. But even all of that, doesn't change that we still have strong hope in adding to our family through adoption. I still have a heart for fostering-- I don't think that will ever leave me. I am not finished. He is not finished with us.
- I have spoken of contentment. I am content, no matter what. Being content however is a daily action for me. I do need to decide to be content. And while some think that means being done with our foster to adopt journey, it doesn't at all mean that. It means that my heart desires one thing, but I also know in my heart, that if my desires and prayers don't work out as I planned, I will be happy and I will be content. It is a daily choice. Each day that we don't get a phone call, I choose to be content. Not only content, but to embrace, and to rejoice in what I do have instead of focusing on what I don't.
- While watching Beth Moore's Esther video this morning, at the very end she shared a verse that she reads each morning. I think it is a great reminder, and it is a part of my life and a part of my learning contentment each day. Colossians 2:10 KJV "And ye are complete in Him, which is the head of all principality and power" It doesn't matter what tomorrow brings, I am complete in Him.
Monday, October 5, 2009
- *****UPDATE*** contest is closed and the names are in the random selector. Which actually means that since there were only 5, I wrote them down on pieces of paper and one of my kids will draw it out of a hat in the morning. I looked at random.org like the big-wig bloggers use and I am sorry, they wanted me to pay $4.95 for their services and well, I am a good Dutch girl (read: cheap) and while I am generous and will buy a book, I will not spend 5 bucks for a name drawing! Perhaps if I had 500 entries, yes, totally worth it. But, for 5 people, I think I can handle it. Anyway! Thanks for entering and leaving your comments!!!
- All you have to do is leave a comment in the comment section telling me what you like to do on a rainy day. Could be the rain that has been falling since last Thursday, but that's all I can come up with.
- If you have never commented and only lurked here, now's the time to make yourself known!! All you have to do is type in your comment, fill out the scramble word, sign in as "anonymous" and wha-la! You have left a comment. (don't forget to sign your name in with your comment though so I know who you are.)
- One more catch, I need at least 5 comments for the contest to count! That's right, I went there! So, tell your friends, leave a comment about what you like to do on a rainy day, and sit back and wait for me to figure out the random selector thing!
- Enter by Wednesday at 9pm CST.
- one entry per person! ;) thought I'd forget didn't you!
- Winners will be announced Wed night or Thursday night... or whenever I get to it. I will post them and then you can email me your address so I can send it off to you!
Friday, October 2, 2009
So, I really don't have a whole lot to say lately, which is neither good nor bad, it just is. So, I will just tell you about my day on Thursday for lack of anything better to tell y'all!
- Little Miss Maicy had a dentist appointment Thursday morning. Dentist appointments do not go well for this child. So much so in fact, that the dentist in OC decided that he didn't want to see her anymore, and she was sent on to a pediatric dentist instead. Yup, that's my girl! We first went to this dentist in August. This check up went okay, I knew she had a teeny tiny cavity that needed to be filled (she just didn't let our usual dentist do it!). And then they told me she needed to have a tooth pulled. Again. I nearly lost it. I watched her have a tooth pulled once before and let me tell you, there is no way I was going to be able to put my baby girl through that moment again! So, for 2 months I dreaded this day, I prayed, and I pleaded, and I whined about what this day would be like! I never did tell her that they were going to pull a tooth. All she knew was that she was getting a cavity filled and then we had to back in the afternoon for space maintaners to be put in where the first tooth was out. (she wouldn't let our dentist put it in when we had the first tooth out. If you are wondering why dentists are so overpaid-- this is why! putting up with kids like mine!)
- So D-Day arrived, and we had to head out by 7:15am to get Jackson dropped off and to make the hour 20min drive up there. I bribed her with Red Rossa pizza and gelato, but she still wasn't real sure. Then I promised I would take her to Target to buy a nice present - no I don't believe bribery is wrong! She decided she wanted the Barbie Hair Salon, so she was going to be brave! And guess what... they called her back, and she went quite happily. I got to sit in the waiting room since they don't let parents go back -smartest thing they ever did if you ask me! - and I read my book for almost 2 hours and tried not to think about what was happening. I prayed and prayed and then she came out. Then they showed her the tooth, and her response? "you took my tooth out?! I thought he just was wiggling it! Huh, I didn't feel a thing!!" Thank you, Jesus! I cannot tell you the relief that came out of me at that moment! This was my answered prayer this week.
- By the way, Target was out of the Barbie Salon, went to Kohls next, they didn't have it either, but they had a great Melissa & Doug Food set, which she loves. Now we play restaurant non-stop. (she doesn't even play with her Barbies, so this worked out!) And we ate at the mall cafe court since it was so cold and rainy we just wanted to stay at the mall instead of running in and out of the rain. She had potato soup. The entire day didn't go according to my plan, and I couldn't be happier!
God is Good! All the Time!