Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Insignificant Me

Yesterday I was blessed (as blessed as one can be to ride a bus with a bunch of 4th graders and chase them around a pond all day) enough to go along on my 4th grade son's field trip. We learned about Iowa wildlife, searched for tracks, learned about the prairie grasses, and were introduced to some bugs.
Most of what we talked about or identified had a distinguishable purpose in the ecosystem. But, not all of them.

We came upon a lace bug- while it was interesting to look at and unique, when asked what the point of this bug was, our guide said it didn't have much of a purpose. And then she said something that I can't get out of my head. "Some creatures were not made to be significant.  They may never be more than the bottom of the food chain."

I thought that it was a depressing thought at first. And then on the ride home I thought about it some more. In this world we are so driven to be the best. Who can make more money. Who has the bigger business. Who has the biggest house. Who has the fastest car. Who has the most read blog. It is ingrained in us every day.

And I sit on the sideline and watch this go by. I have never been driven to be the best at anything. I am a hairdresser. Did I ever dream of being the greatest hairdresser to the stars? No. I have never in my work of any kind, dreamed of being anything great. I want to do my job, respect those I come across and come home. I am a foster parent. Do I strive to take in more kids than anyone else to earn a reward. No. That scares me! Yes, its great to help, but its not my goal to save the world. I am a blogger. Do I hope to have a great big blog with thousands of followers and make money from this? No. I am just here, getting stuff off my chest and hopefully brightening one or two people's day. I have no huge aspirations for my life. I never have. I have never wanted to be the next greatest anything.

For a long time, this made me feel like I was lazy or unmotivated. What was wrong with me that I never dreamt of the way it could be? Then, today, I was reminded that sometimes we are just created and not called to be something significant. And you know what? That is okay.

My hope doesn't rest in my success. My hope rests in Christ. This is my goal. To be a positive example and a light for Christ. To share Christ's love with everyone. Not by being the next Max Lucado, Rick Warren or Billy Graham. Just by being Alicia- daughter of a Savior, Sinner, wretch, humble, broken, mom, wife. If I can leave this world and only my husband and children say "She lived for God and we think she was the greatest", then my life was just as significant as if 5 million people said I was great.

I am not saying no one should have goals and dreams to be great. God made us all for a purpose and He will use each of us in His own way. I'm just telling you, that if you sometimes feel insignificant as I do, it's okay. God's using you, too. You're doing just what He wants you to.

"The King will reply, 'I tell you the truth, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers of mine, you did for me.' Matthew 25:40

Do you feel as though your purpose is the bottom of the food chain? Or are you working on being the king of the jungle?

(*Top picture from field trip, no idea which kids are in the picture, but they aren't mine. ;)
bottom picture  from the millipede plague of 2010, I'm still working on learning their life's purpose, but rejoice that they have decided to fulfill it further away from my home)


Sarah said...

Hi Alicia!
I agree. The other day in a Bible study I read that people always ask, "What is God's will for my life?" That seems like a good thing to ask, right? But what we should be seeking is "What is God's will?" period. And then we make our life fit in with that.
I used to be puzzled by the quote that says we are all dust in the wind, here one day and gone the next. It made me think, well, why bother then. But we were created for His pleasure. He created "insignificant you" and "not so super me" just the way he wanted us to be, for His pleasure. The one thing I do think we have to strive to be the very best at is being a child of God, not by the world's standards, but by God's standards. We find out those standards out by reading the Bible and listening to His Spirit.

Marissa said...

sometimes I feel a little of both. I want to be a great mother, wife and so much more...however, sometimes I feel like its a struggle. But at the same time, I know I am making a difference and being a positive person for my family and myself!!


Diane said...

I think this is your best post yet! Loved it and the bug info :O)

Lynda Young said...

Ah, Alicia, this comes as a timely reminder for me. Particularly: "My hope doesn't rest in my success. My hope rests in Christ."
Thank you


Jeanette Levellie said...

Oh, Alicia, thank you for posting this today--it was inspired! I've been feeling like a little lace bug lately, and needed to hear this.


Gabby said...

I find you extremely significant. I am definitely feeling like I can not even do the *insignificant* things very well lately, so I am definitely climbing any food chain ladders. However, I have to remember it is all about God's work everyday. That is what gives me hope despite some pretty "dung bettle"-like circumstances right now! Love your blog. I count as 100,000 readers, just so you know!

DORCAS said...

Yes Alicia! So very very true! Thank you so very much for sharing. I needed this reminder. I think we all need this reminder. We tend to forget out main focus. Jesus Christ our Lord and Savior.

What a wonderful read before bed. Thank you again!
~blessing and have an awesome weekend!