Decisions

Twelve and a half years ago, I was 18 years old.(really?!)  I began my first day of beauty school. I was the first person in my class to complete my 2300 hours and walked out of there one March day. The next day I began my first job. I was at that job for 2 years until my son surprised me by coming 11 weeks early. I took an undetermined time off of working. That was January of 2001. In May of 2001 I knew it was time to head back to the work world. I wanted to feel the hair in my hands again and meet new friends. So I went to work at Shear Advantage. My schedule has changed as my family has needed it to. In the last few years I have mostly worked just a day or two a week, plus Saturdays.  It was a great out for me. I was able to still do what I love and spend time with my growing kids.

Now both of my kids are in school full time. I began thinking of adding to my work schedule. Filling in my days.  But here's the deal- sick kid? Uh. Have to change appointments or call Grandma. Kids have a program? Well- I guess I could re-arrange...How late are you open? Well, I need to put my kids to bed- my husband is working out of state and well.. ugh.
This way.
That way.
I have been pulled in so many different directions in the past few years, it was time to make the decision. So, I prayed, and asked others to pray for me. And the end result was God showing me most definitely that my place is not at the salon. I need to take care of my family. I want to be able to be at school for field trips, class parties, lunches, and especially when they are sick. Here's the deal with hairdressers- we don't get to work 9-5 and call it a day. We need to work around everyone else's schedule and how dare we not be available when that client wants us?! ( If you are one of my customers, trust me, you aren't one of "those"! You wouldn't be reading this if you were! )



I know that the working mom vs stay at home mom debate is a heated one. I'm not here to get into that. And honestly I am not "for" either one. I am for whatever each individual feels called by God to be doing. Some women are the best most amazing working moms that I could ever meet! And their jobs allow them to be great moms while being great employees. That's clearly right for them and that's great!And I know that while my kids were little and home all the time that I couldn't have handled every. single. day. home with them. Working was my out. My time to have grown up talk and just get my self worth filled up for the week. Many moms are far better at that stage than I was! And for some its simply a matter of finances. I am fortunate enough that that wasn't why I worked. My piddly days on the schedule certainly didn't pay the bills more than my own mad money.

So, here I am. Age 30. Retired.
Now what?!

 I don't think I look old enough to be retired... well...nevermind, don't go there!

I realize that I have now written a lot and still don't seem to have a definite point.
Huh. Ya win some ya lose some.
Sometimes I just talk.
Ya'll have a great day!