Jackson is taking hockey right now. (Yikes!)
And I am really proud of him, he is doing awesome! Each time he goes out on the ice he improves more and more. It is so fun to watch! He is also gaining confidence, and not struggling so much with that shyness each time we head into the rink. Oh, the boy breaks his mama's heart because he. is. just. so. sensitive. ugh. I hate it, because I have always been the same way. And it makes me soo mad when I can't get a grip on the unwanted tears that fall upon my cheeks. So everytime I look at those giant brown eyes well up with tears, my heart breaks, and then I get mad, at me, for passing that on to him. Why couldn't he have just gotten my incredible smarts, or super outgoing personality, or that never ending, never offensive charm?! What? Oh, that isn't me? Flashy smile? No? Sleek and athletic body? Try not to choke on it! Super cute dimples... ah, he did get those! From his dad. Umm, okay. So he got what he could. It's what I had to offer I guess. I know that God has a reason for making us this way... haven't found out what that is yet... but I know its His plan and He doesn't make mistakes, but oh, the humbling lessons of seeing our worst traits in our children!
What traits have you passed on to your kids that make you want to run the other way?Psalm 139:14 (The Message) 13-16 Oh yes, you shaped me first inside, then out; you formed me in my mother's womb. I thank you, High God—you're breathtaking! Body and soul, I am marvelously made! I worship in adoration—what a creation! You know me inside and out, you know every bone in my body; You know exactly how I was made, bit by bit, how I was sculpted from nothing into something. Like an open book, you watched me grow from conception to birth; all the stages of my life were spread out before you, The days of my life all prepared before I'd even lived one day.